The Beginning of the End

Hafiq told me not to publish this picture in facebook. so I didnt. I published it on blog instead. i guess, there are not many people who will care so much how he look here in my blog. plus, it didnt look bad to me. anyway, that pic is just to furnish my post today. by the way, hows my new look? haha

So, i have finally settled down after the whole week of new semester started. all my stuff is in their proper place. Mahallah Sumayyah replaced all of its old furniture with a new one. Although I love the old one and think that there is nothing wrong with them, I also like the new one. I'm too lazy to take a pic of the new furnitures so let me just describe it. we've got bigger table. i guess i am only the minority that love the table because it is made for a geek like me. it is now easier to lock my laptop. i can now place laptop, printer and clutters and still have place to study and write. the wardrobe is ok. although for this one i like older one better. i couldnt hang my clothes without crumpling their bottom because this wardrobe got too many shelves. plus it didnt have mirror in it like the old one. the bed was perfect. it is big and long. the two compartments underneath it r spacious. all in all this room scores almost the same points as the old room. kay, enough about this.

Classes. Somehow right before it begin i was so excited and full of resolutions. however, once i met the lecturers my interest began to drop rapidly. I think most of them is unnecessarily twisted. However, i am happy with myself because at least i do flip through some pages before classes. But, i hate the fact that that is not enough. The fact that I lost the best lecturer in aikol for my only best subject is also frustrating. i hate his replacement too. well not exactly hate.....the point is, i am still not convinced. well, such an unhappy beginning. I hope it will get better.
Ramadhan is coming. I didnt think this will affect my study because i believe fasting helps the brain. I just hope i will not receive so much pressure on final year tasks and assignments because its tiring.

Since the semester is on its early beginning, i didnt feel any emotions or melancholy. more like i couldnt wait to leave since i hate the fact that i have lost interest and the cause of losing interest. but i have a feeling that everyone will try to make it hard to leave simply because it is too easy to leave. they will make sure that we will not leave without a second glance. well thats just my prophecy. see if i am right.
i am also worried if i couldnt leave. what if i flunked anything?
now thats a question.

I also have one or two things that bothers me. but i simply didnt want to write about it. for now. because it'll only make me depress more. so we'll just leave it at unhappy musings.

Workaholic

So, i've now reached a point where people can call the firm asking for me. a newbie, but not quite. (sing Britney Spears). I even reached a point where there is so much to do and there is so little time. I have handled a total of 40 (or 50?) files so far and i feel like i've been in this firm forever (i mean this in a good way and a bad way too hahaha). If i stayed longer i might have a collection of angry clients who called every other day just to force me to fight against nature in order to get their case done like all other senior staffs and lawyers. but nah, i cant stay longer even if i want to...even when i enjoyed the companionship of the people around me...even if i appreciate all their attention and insights and guidance. because i've got law school to attend. another scary semester. the final semester and crazy people to deal with. and then another 9 months of unknown future.
All i can say is, i do not waste any minute i spend in this firm. i feel like even if i am not a pro at conveyancing, i think people here can agree that i have some basic of it now. and i have one POV here: what we did last semester all that filing and stuff IS NOT CONVEYANCING that was LITIGATION dEM IT. anyway, we know its not what he called it...but we just shut it and do it coz hey thats life. u gotta do what ure told unless and until ure in the telling position. so i quote KAK INA 'senang naj ajar kau ni' muehehehehe (kembang dowh) HOWEVER, i do not take it in toto okay, i took it with a grain of salt too. they said my personality suit LITIGATION better. well havent i heard that one too many times. truth is, i'm not sure of it. as usual, i prefer to just go wherever life took me.
anyways, i plan to resign by the end of this month. i've already book a hotel in Penang on the 3rd-5th July. I AM SO GOING CUTI-CUTI MALAYSIA. and Fiza and the family is ready to receive me. and Hafiq might be coming too. i bid all the food in Penang to await for my arrival patiently. huhuhu :D
kay, lunch hour is over.....adios (singing Santana -Corazon Espinado)

Congratulation

Let us be thankful to Allah for letting us pass all subjects this semester. now we can safely move on to the final step. cant believe it. anyway, congratulation people! let us celebrate once semester 1 started.

Couldnt come out from the shell

CPC I sapped out my free will. Plus, CP I is the last paper. conclusion: I couldnt study for CP I. I have no will to read and remember. Will i get that 9 marks?

what happened yesterday?

okay fine, here's what i am willing to write about CPC I (Criminal PRocedure I):
1. One compulsory Q = 35 marks [not finished answering. i chose to answer this last]
2. had a glimpse of my future attending CPC I lectures again.
3. brought in Federal Constitution that had one Article highlighted and another scribbled. I was prepared to create drama moment if they tried to take that FC but that invigilator didnt. Lucky him. my plan: to tear off that highlighted and scribbled pages right there and then.
4. 20 marks burned. nil. blank. no answer.
5. 40 marks in a limbo due to irrelevant answers
6. just need 16.5 to pass but with 40 marks.....will that ever happen?
7. Lost the will to write by first page of answer.
8. used 12 pages of answer book but only 9 is actually fully written.
9. I shall answer no more question about this paper. If anybody ask, I never took this subject and if anybody ask me next sem in my CPC I class, i'd say 'shut up!'

23 and a day

First of all, thank you to all people that deep in my heart i actually love. I am so happy that this year I received birthday wishes from the people that i care. people who are close to me.
My first act of denial is to hide my birth date on facebook and friendster. I guess that act gave a good turn because I received messages from people who truly cares. the feeling is mutual. you know who you are.
Actually, my birthday is not so special because it always fall during exams or holiday. I didnt get to celebrate with friends. in fact, i dont remember celebrating.
however, this year is more special than last year coz i received a cake from Liza after so many years of no birthday cake. i guess i am cake deprived. lol. I also received a blog post in my honor. thanks to kak fiza. hehe. and people, thanks for the facebook messages, smses, blog comment and shoutbox message.

In this dizziness of my head and heaviness of my eyelids (sleep deprived, over and done with Pil i), i would like to write about another theory of life that i had just realized. actually this is nothing new. but just for the sake of increasing the anticipation i'd like to add that this is the second time i remember something really funny from my trips to the toilet. the first is also something about trips to toilet.
I've just realized that every semester during examination weeks i will suffer this 'toilet trips' (well, i'd like to write something else but i just dont want to ruin my gratitude above. hehe) for many semesters i thought exams made my antibody weak due to anxiety and sleep deprivation etc.
BUT!!!!
today i have a new theory. you know why they made the term 'scared shitless' ? yes, exactly. thats my theory.
I AM SCARED SHITLESS DUE TO EXAMS.
i kid you not.

Eh?

OMG.... camne aku bleh menulis lagi??? silelah sedar diri wahai sarah
tapi masalahnye aku nak announce kat seluruh Malaysia yg aku DAH SIAP PANDORA
and DAH WAT HEARING
pasal markah tu lain cerita la. yg penting aku dah siapppppppppppp
Ya Allah tak terkata kegembiraan aku nih. kalo aku kurus dan athletic nak je aku wat sommersault dan melompat-lompat kegembiraan. tapi sebab aku ni seorang yg cool. maka hasrat tu aku pendam je lah. ahahaha.
mula-mula aku rasa macam nak drive keluar UIA and pegi Cheras Leisure Mall atau OU untuk tengok apepe movie yg menarik. tapi disebabkan jarak yg jauh dan takde kawan maka aku batalkan shj niat tersebut. yelah, tak sempat sampai balik UIA nanti dah bosan sebab drive jauh tapi sorang je. kalaulah dekat-dekat sini dah ada panggung dah lama aku berkunjung.
tapi aku tetap nak gak keluar. the destination is: JJ Wangsa Maju. pada pendapat aku inilah tempat yg paling best nak hilangkan bosan berbanding sume tempat bosan yg lain spt Carrefour, Tesco & Giant di kawasan nih.
ape yg aku wat? sampai je dlm JJ aku tgk ada exhibition menjual kerepek dan kuih dari negeri-negeri di Malaysia. aku yg sememangnye lapar menerima dengan hati terbuka sample-sample yg dihulur. dahlah sedap. aku pun pusing-pusing kat situ mencari ape yg berkenan di hati. aku mmg dah niat nak jadi shopaholic hari ni. tetapi sbg pengguna yg bijak aku pegi masuk dalam market dulu sblm membeli kerepek yg diminati. kat situ aku beli ape? berus gigi, sushi dan potato salad (makanan gak yg aku nampak. maklumla lapor). pastu aku g survey foodcourt JJ. jalan-jalan cari makan. tapi kehalalan nye tidak aku yakini. maka aku pun naik ke MPH dan membeli majalah, masuk JJ lagik, kali ni beli mug plak. smlm mug aku pecah. dahlah mug tu comel. terpakse la membeli mug hodoh yg selepas diskaun harga dia RM3.50 jek. pastu aku masuk McD (alamak, dah tak boikot ke?). masalahnye mcD jek yg ada tanda halal besor and aku yakin dgn kehalalannye walau ape pun anda nak kata berbanding tempat2 makan lain yg ade disitu. according to maqasid al-shariah..it is tahsiniyyat to eat halal food. plus, aku sangat la lapar...ini plak hajiyyat for protection of life. (warning: this is totally my excuse to justify myself). and lagi satu, dalam McD je yg mcm tak ramai org dimana aku bleh rileks-rileks sambil makan slow-slow. so akupun lepak situ sambil bace majalah. dengan selamba aku makan sekali potato salad yg dibeli di JJ tanpa menghiraukan jelingan tukang mop mcD (excusesssssss).
pas dah puas melepak dan habis membelek majalah women's weekly aku pun berjalan ke arah exhibition tersebut dan membeli rempeyek dal (3 = RM10) dan denderam(juga dikenali sbg telinga kel**g @ peneram). sumenye makanan fevret aku. pastu dengan beg plastik yg penuh di tangan aku pun melangkah pulang.
moral of the story, belilah kerepek di JJ.
terima kasih kerana membace bebelan saya.
saya sangat hepi.

Major works this whole semester:

Homeworks
Tutorials
Classes
PP draftings
Midterm tests x 7
evidence second test
Civil procedure: pandora draftings and hearing
Criminal procedure: Investigation paper & assignment
CPC court observation
Presentation CP
Presentation Evidence
Presentation PIL
Written submission PIL
Presentation Jurisprudence
Assignment/take home test jurisprudence
UNGS 2050 tests x 3
UNGS 2050 presentation
UNGS 2050 book review


Exams:
5/4/09 = UNGS 2050 & PP
7/4/09 = Evidence
9/4/09 = PIL
11/4/09 = Jurisprudence
14/4/09 = CPC
16/4/09 = CP

What to do.....

I hereby declare that i shouldnt be writing until the exam is over.
I said should not.
I didnt say will not.
but, perhaps not.
hahah.
anyway, my first papers is on the 5th April.
Professional Practice together with Ethics and Fiqh for Everyday life.
I seriously dont know how to deal with two papers a day.
I refuse to think about the complications. I just want to get over and done with it.
All the best to me and all of u for the exams!

Honorary Doctorate?

Berapakah harga sekeping PhD? disini harganya RM50,000.
but no worries, even if u are the greatest failure u can still achieve that.
do they really gave PhD for being a failure? lol
can even get for free...

well, today the rain falls really heavy here....a big tree fell here.... I guess even the nature disagreed. just like i am. For the first time, i am ashame for being here...

MxO finished!

and so I'm done with all 99 chapters of MxO. wonder if there is any continuance? it should be since the story is not finished yet. What I am worried is that.....do they really have the continuance? coz i dont think i should download and read them all without a care of the world like i just did. Kuzumi is so cute. Think i adore him. thats his picture waving goodbye to his school (Seinagi) because he have to transfer to another magic school and improve himself there. Once in a while i rather have a cool character rather than the usual stupid guy with amazing ability. this one is the real cool guy.
anyway, lets stop here about manga.

Had two mid terms with 20% marks today. the first was at 11. It was Public Intl Law I. I didnt study last night coz I was sick. I actually used up all my energy and became weak. so I cant stay up to study. Fiza called at 1.30am to wake me up but i said 'ok' but then i had to go to sleep (even if i'm not sick i will go back to sleep anyway. i never actually succeeded being woken up after 12am for study).
So i woke up this morning still with the thing. went to Econs cafe to get my breakfast and stumbled with Liza and Sid there. Liza told me that i looked sick (i secretly liked looking sick coz people fuss over it. ahaks). I ate and went to LTB to study. tried to read as much as i can at 10.20am. and the exam started 11am. as expected, it went badly. oh btw, i cut all morning classes except the exam.
then i went to the IIUM Clinic to take some meds. tried to fish for a half day MC so that i can cut the Ethics' mid term to no avail. If you want to see Muslim Hitler just go to IIUM Clinic.
then i cut the 2pm class and went to 3.20-4.50pm midterm - Ethics & Fiqh for Everyday Life. this one i only began to read at 2pm while lying tiredly on my bed and trying not to sleep. I dont know how much i will lose out of the 20%. this is my last UNGS subjects and i wanted it to be an A. no secret about that. this is my only chance to pull up my CGPA. and one surest way to get that is by having the highest CAM. anyway, i tried my best. Luckily (well its so lucky that i'm always lucky otherwise i dont know how to live), my spot question came up. but even though i answer that question i dont actually know whether my answer to that spot question is the correct answer. coz there's no one to ask. so, i am not very sure about the marks. I was so tired and all i wanted to do is answer as fast as i could so that i can end this. I was the first to submit and leave the class.
hm.....
even writing this is tiring. and i still have to study for another 20% midterm this Friday. the toughest of 4th year paper: Criminal Procedure (dark aura). for this one....must start early.

somebody.....anybody....save me...

so, i finally get over my state of denial and get myself check the final examination timetable just now. oh well, before i started i'd just wanna make a point here that we did try our best to get that gaps between our papers but the rest of you people just wouldnt cooperate. only 70 people signed our petition this semester. hey i even went all the way of getting the consent of all three Trust lecturers including the course coordinator. and that gets me wondering how the heck A&R ignored THAT. i mean, the lecturers even remarked that our request IS reasonable and another one wrote 'students should not be pressured' or something like that! and we/us wrote some students are anaemic and needed their rest. 'sup with that? i hate whoever that made this timetable's guts. and i hate people who dont sign. WHOEVER YOU ARE. grrrr
well of course my courses this semester isnt as heavy as most. whatever that is, at some point of time we will face the same difficulty right? so lets share that bad moments together and forget how less unlucky i am (thank you Allah).
you see, i took seven subjects this semester and one of it does not have final exam coz its only a skill class and its only 0.5 credit hour. plus, i no longer needed to take elective subjects coz i finished em up last short semester which means i had less 4 credit hours than most people.
however, despite not feeling-quite-pressured-since-i-know-most-of-my-girls-and-bros-will-be-facing-a-more-tough-time-than-me i do feel bad and depressed about all this. i mean...three papers in a row? when do i get to study? do these people seriously think i've been studying the whole semester? I DIDNT EVEN DO NOTES THIS SEMESTER. i have no mood for all those nerdy things this semester. truth is i'm kinda lost in space for most subjects especially Trust.

but that doesnt mean i lost it. my sweat and effort still goes for the betterment of the future me. i still have enough determination to read up on my job as research assistant and even wrote a paper on it. i had half a thought that once its done (now its 60% done) i might stand a chance to submit it for master's dissertation on victim's rights. how cool is that? well, i dont think i will. i mean, the outcome for that research goes for the person who hired me. plus, i got allowed to make it as my EAP term paper. i think thats enough killing two birds with one stone and getting paid for it too.

so my finals goes like:
Usul fiqh ii 28/10; English for academic purpose 29th (thats two papers in a row); Evidence and procedure in shariah court ii 31/10; Trust 1/11; Company Law ii 2/11 (these are the three papers in a row) and; Land Law ii 5/11.

and before that, i shall have two tests and one term paper submission plus a presentation. how great is that coz today is already the 11th. do they really mean it when they say the eleventh hour? oh wait i got confused..... its 12th! y'know its 3.30 AM in the morning, what do u expect?
dem
i'm seriously disappointed that our petition got ignored. we even put on nice envelope this semester.
dem
i need a boyfriend to bitch about these things. why i had to blog about it....and yeah, only couples bitch about things to each other...man and woman dont bitch to each other unless they are gays.

roger and out