Think about ME

People know they are going to die but live anyway.
The same principle is relevant to a lot of other things such as:

• I know I am not the best student or student with outstanding CGPA but I be merry proud of my achievement anyway.
• I am sad and feel for the people in Pakistan and Palestine and will do my best to help in whatever way I can but I keep on living as usual and still complaint about restaurant service anyway.
• I know that I may not be the prettiest girl in the universe but I buy clothes, bags, accesories, make ups etc etc anyway.
• I have no boyfriend but I dream and made plans of living with someone in the future anyway.
• Money is never enough but I give anyway.

and everything else that may cross your mind.

The point is:
Is it logical to stop living when calamity happens?
Calamity is there for us to keep on living.
There is no life without disaster. People will be tired with happiness if there is only happiness in life. Calamity made life more meaningful.
So then, are we going to stop living?
Are we going to forsake quality service/things that we thought we deserve because of calamity?
Are we going to stop moving forward and advocate positive but small things that may not help people in Pakistan or Palestine but help made some people who say, went to an Ikan Patin Restaurant in Temerloh be happy because of it's great service?

My answer is no. I will keep on living, be helpful and at the same time complaint about things. I will not be a robot who will only feel one thing at one particular time. No, my life is not like "Oh hey I've got worked to do!" and then I work come hell or heaven until my work is finished or "Ya Allah, bencana, perang.." then I should lie down, cry and be in despair. No, I am like "Work? Ok...hey thats a PC Game...Ok...hey thats food...eat!" or "Kesiannya diorang tak dapat makanan sebab banjir...hey kawan-kawan tolong la bagi derma...eh kenapa kedai ikan patin ni hampeh sangat ha?".

So that's my POV. Beg to differ all you want and can everything. I think I have revealed part of me very clearly.

Probably it's just me. But I feel it'll be interesting if this is my answer to how some people think how some things should be looked at and that is how it should and always will be and that theirs are the most correct method. I totally get their point, it got me thinking and I think thats absurd thank you very much.

lets apply the principle again:

• People don't prefer/hate the way I think and act but be my friend anyway.
• I don't like a friend's opinion but admire her anyway.

and the list go on.

Dunno whether i should publish this

Ah, I've embarrassed myself again. how could i let out my own emotion to someone i shouldnt? and in the first place.... how could i became passionate about people who were unable to grasp the reason behind my outbursts? and then it made me bursts my dissatisfactions to a stranger. or at least, a friend who shouldnt know. again and again i did exactly what i shouldnt have done: "never argue with an idiot. they drag you down to their level and beat you with experience". well thats not exactly what it meant in my situation. but nevertheless, it can be applied like this: "never feel for an idiot coz they will never get you". ah, now thats a philosophical view for my Gerald aint it? now now, I am not depressed over this. my life is miserable enough as it is. so i have no time to be depressed over this (did i just repeat myself twice?) what i am feeling is.... annoyance quite a negative feeling that could add up to my misery but not that serious. PEOPLE, why is it freedom of choice doesnt apply in friendship? coz i really would like to exercise that rights. the older i get, the more difficult for me to exercise it. people who are close to me know that i have a history (or rather, histories) of dumping a close friend because i dont agree with their attitudes. because i'd rather be friendless than be friends with people who dont appreciate the meaning of friendship. I told Fiza: "for me its like this: if u r just someone i know then whatever u do is ok (i dont care), but if ure my best/close friend...its either ure my best/close friend or you're not. you're the 'not' when you do something that made me think that u're not my best friend". So long ago I wrote that I am a friend who took friendship seriously. because thats the closest I get to doting family. i really appreciate it when someone enjoyed my friendship or like to be around me. I still feel and think the same. I cant choose my family. but i can choose my best friends. I dont want to be best friends with (in no particular order): 1) people with low EQ. 2) people who gets on my nerve or is simply annoying. 3) people who dont understand what i mean when i said something deep. 4) people who committed hudud crimes 5) people who committed almost like hudud crimes 6) people who calculates whether my company is better than what they can currently get in order to be with me. 7) people who ditch me for Paris Hilton and the likes. 8) immature people 9) pathetic people 10) people who doesnt have thoughts of their own. 11) sexually disoriented people. 12) people who thinks i am a waste of time and money. 13) people that most people generally hated. 14) indecisive people 15) most importantly, someone who doesnt share or have a common view of a friendship with yours truly. 16) a combination of any of the above. do me a favor if u r any of the above. stay away from me. at least, until u throw away that bad attribute. coz someone told me that i shouldnt exercise my freedom of choice. to avoid conflicts. coz my life is complicated enough without you. enough about that. now i would like to deal with someone from my past...