MxO

28 February 2009

First of all, I'd like to welcome my Ten (10) avid readers that have been visiting on three consecutive days (Sun,Mon,Tues). I must say, i am deeply grateful seeing the amount of visits considering my blog isnt actually interesting.
anyway, I have a tracking device that monitor my blog all the time. just so u know. who knows if in the future i can get 1000 visitors i can apply for ads. haha.
so the weekend is here. i am glad. even though there are still loads of works to be done. I tried to have fun as always and by that i mean things such as this:

jeng jeng jeng @ tadaaaa!I am currently on chapter 10 of MxO. this manga is a hilarious one. I actually laughed with tears last night reading the chapter 5.

The story starts off with a flashback, Kuzumi Taiga is asked at his school entrance interview what he would do if he could use magic. "Take over the world" is his reply, followed by an outburst of laughter from a very cute girl. Not much remains in his memory after those events, but he does remember the girl and she is somehow involved in him failing to enter the school of his choice.
Wandering around outside of aforementioned school the next day, he gets mistaken for a student ditching class by one of the teachers; and get's pulled into the school through a magic barrier he did not notice.
He is in fact a student with no magical ability at all, and it just so happens this is a magic school.

source: mangadownload.net
well. thats it. haha.

Flowers in the air

24 February 2009

Esok aku ada dua tests yg mesti dijawab. tetapi seblom aku memecahkan otak untuk belajar atau cuba untuk belajar aku nak tulis pasal topik yg sedap dibaca. well, at least to me it is.

Kalau nak disamakan Malaysia dengan negara empat musim sekarang ni bolehlah dikatakan kita sedang berada dalam musim bunga. dalam bahasa mat salleh: SPRING season.
ini antara masa-masa yg aku suka berjalan-jalan di luar/outdoor sambil bermonolog sendirian. haha. kalaulah aku ada kamera DSLR, mmg best aku nak tangkap gambar pemandangan.
Pokok-pokok di dalam UIA sedang rancak berbunga. dekat kawasan gombak ni, pokok yg paling popular adalah pokok Tekoma. pokok ni berbunga time cuaca yang macam sekarang ni jek: panas dan lembab... a la sauna. aku lebih suka cuaca mcm ni dari cuaca 3-5 hari lepas yg panas terik a la kemarau. bile berbunga tu nampak macam pokok sakura pun ade. pokok tekoma ni ada warna pink/purple and putih. Kalau kat AIKOL plak pokok bunga kertas @ bougainvillea lebat mengeluarkan bunga-bungaan. lagi satu pokok yang banyak ditanam di dalam UIA adalah pokok kemboja. wujud di dalam perlbagai warna antaranya merah-pink and putih-kuning. pokok ni agak kontroversi kerana baunya yang wangi sering dikaitkan dengan hantu langsuir. pokok ni banyak terdapat di kawasan perkuburan (sound effect: lagu seram). tapi kalau sedang berbunga tidak kira siang atau malam memang ler wangi. aku suka je kat pokok ni. tapi aku takkan tanam kat rumah. bkan sebab takut tapi sebab malas org kata rumah aku kawasan kubur. tapi aku ade je tanam pokok melur @ jasmine yg berbunga lebat dan wangi kat depan rumah. ini pun pokok di kubur jugak tapi stigma takdela macam pokok kemboja.
pastu pokok yang takde bunga seperti pokok buah dan pokok semata-mata pun sedang rancak mengeluarkan daun-daun baru yang masih hijau muda warnanye. sahlah sekarang spring season. bumi Malaysia sedang berwarna-warni tapi hati aku tak seberapa. haha.

which brings me to another issue:
While I am so busy nursing my feelings which includes my frustration I had a physical jolt of reality that life is larger than just how bad people are towards you. I mean, that is bad enough but what if you suddenly lose your arms, legs or life even. Yesterday, the car that we and friends were in met with an accident and while the car was crashing the front car, for a flicker of moments all thoughts fly out of me and all I think about is my dear life. which after that brought me to realization like this:haha. hows that for my theory of life?
maybe i was subdued. Nevertheless, its not like I am not this type of person. I am always the type who sees the larger picture. but whatever i was complaining here is because sometimes even positive people can be in despair.
Like what i wrote above. I always enjoy simplest things like nature and appreciate the beauty of life even when I am in the mud. plus, I am quick to get out of my own misery. Well, I am currently still in misery..perhaps will always be for next 9 months. However, even miserable people can take a break. Which is what I am doing now - taking a break from my misery.
aha, very philosophical. i like. haha. (wink at geraldine).


Hari yg gelap

22 February 2009

HAri ni aku tekanan lagi. Haih, tak habis2 tekanan. risau lak kalau tetibe aku jadik mental. tak ke riuh sekampung "Sarah blaja law sampai jadik gile". ishk2 mintak simpang ler. Final Year ni aku membuat rumusan bahawa kepandaian otak tidak lagi menjadi ukuran. sebaliknye kepandaian anda membodek lecturer-lecturer dan samada anda boleh buat-buat yang anda bodoh dan menerima apa sahaja arahan lecturer tanpa banyak soal walaupun betapa tak logiknye arahan tersebut. setakat ni aku punye integriti diri belum lagi membenarkan aku membodek lecturer. otak aku belum boleh terima arahan bodoh. diri aku belum mahu melaksanakan arahan bodoh. maka disebabkan itulah aku tekanan. adakah aku patut melupekan diri aku sendiri dan buat sahaja mengikut arus?
Memang sekarang ni lecturer akan banyak bagi arahan kerana subjek tahun terakhir lebih banyak coursework. ada beberapa subjek yang assessment mark nye 60% dan exam 40% instead of the other way round.
Mungkinkah aku akan menjadi the next encik Karpal? ya, memanglah dia hebat sekarang tapi mase kat uni dulu dia sangkut gak (ini lecturer aku yg satu university ngan dia yg ckp kat aku). Aku tepon rumah cakap yg maybe sem ni aku akan sangkut. and selepas mak aku mendengar hujah2 aku (termasuk la perenggan pertama tadi) maka mak aku cakap takpelah kalo aku nak fail. nak wat camne kan. of course la aku takkan saje2 failkan diri tapi ade high probability la nak fail sem nih.
aku ni memang ego tinggi dan keras kepala. tapi disaat-saat begini ego dan kepala aku dalam keadaan berbelah bahagi. pertama aku rasekan adalah benar untuk aku mengekalkan ego dan kepala batu aku dalam menghadapi kebodohan manusia. on the other hand, mase depan aku boleh terancam. yang mane patut dikorbankan? mase depan atau maruah?
Jangan ade sape2 nak blame aku diatas hal ini. hakikatnye mmg betul pun kebanyakan ahli akademik jurusan undang-undang mempunyai otak yang pusing. termasuk le practitioner. lihat saje encik Karpal. tapi utk menguatkan hujah aku....
ada sorang lecturer kat uia ni dah mental. padahal pernah tulis buku yg bagus utk student.
ada judge bunuh diri.
ada lecturer bergaduh dgn kwn baik yg jugak lecturer law sampai conteng buku yg diorang buat sama2.
ada yg hari2 oggling student atas bawah sebab nak tengok ape aurat dia yg terpapar dengan alasan nak marah kalau nampak. pastu sindir2 and siap bgtau lagi ape yg dia nampak. (aku rasa ini kire berdose gak...ko pehal nak tgk aurat perempuan? alihkan pandanganmu sudeh, takpun g ah soh lecturer perempuan yg tegur) - aku marah jek tapi tak pnah jadi mangsa dia nih.
ada yg kaki gossip. kalah gossip girls. haaai penat jek blaja sampai phd tapi kekampungan kekal melanda.
eh kalau aku nak list down memang satu blog pun tak habis daaaa.....
ape yg aku cube sampaikan adalah: kat org mcm ni ke aku patut hormat dan menuntut ilmu?
well aku membuat keputusan bahawa aku disini bukan lagi untuk menuntut ilmu. tapi untuk belajar cara-cara survival dalam menghadapi attitude orang. kire ilmu gak la. tapi ilmu yang tak perlu dibelajar kalau semua orang bijak dan baik. tapi disebabkan manusia jahat dan bodoh adalah seperti buih di lautan maka terpaksa la. bagus gak untuk hari2 bekerja nanti.
aku dah pun merancang mase depan aku based on semua di atas. memandangkan hidup aku sedikit sebanyak akan dimusnahkan oleh org2 mcm ni maka aku pun melupekan hasrat nak jadik lawyer. kalau ada rezeki jadilah. kalo takde aku dahpun mengisi borang SPA. pilihan kedua: pegawai penyiasat. mwahahaha.
tapi buat mase ni aku masih tensen kerana sejak sabtu aku tidak memproduce apepe untuk mengurangkan kesibukan aku. sebabnye aku takde mood. tapi sebab terbesar adalah aku menemui jalan buntu. drafting CP taktau wat. homework PP taktau jawapan. study untuk mid term ungs2050 - banyak sangat tak larat nak baca. study utk midterm PP - takde notes and taktau la hape nak dibace. maka dengan ini aku tensen tensen tenseeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
sekian.

Reflection

07 February 2009

My blog is called Rhapsody. So, It is not necessary to write about anything that i dont think or feel about very deeply. I personally think that to write every single thing that happen in our life is useless. Its how we react to whats happening that is really important. sometimes my reaction is just like everybody else's. so its not necessary to record.
Whenever i posted something, i usually want them to be known. I didnt write to show how clever i am, let alone to show how less clever i am. I write in the hope to give benefit. If i write on bad things, i hope that people can avoid it.

These few weeks, I had been very neutral with my life. meaning, life is as ordinary as it can be. because of that, i had a chance to observe others. so this is what i think:

1) Some people can really score in their examinations but it doesnt mean that they are really clever or smart. Cleverness is an original characteristic. Cleverness is not measured by examination results. As for me, I know someone is clever just by observing them and not by looking at their result transcript. These adjectives refer to mental adroitness or to practical ingenuity and skill. What i am trying to convey is that, whenever i look at people who is known to score a lot in their exams I dont always regard them as clever. Good results may only mean that you took a lot of pains in studying, or you are hardworking etc. but it doesnt necessarily mean that you are clever.
Allow me to illustrate:
#1: A who are in her 20s scores in her LLB examinations and masters English language as her second language. But A thinks she lives in Gossip Girl. A = not very clever.
(seriously man, other people's life is as much important as yours#2: A who are in her 20s scores in her LLB examinations and masters English language as her second language. But A thinks that life revolve around her. A = not very clever.. get a grip)
#3: A who are in her 20s scores in her LLB examinations and masters English language as her second language. But A thinks she is perfect. A = not very clever.

well i think thats enough. i think #1 quite explains it all. How come English is one of the criteria? Its because people always had a misconception that all English speakers in Malaysia is actually clever.
I dont mind befriending people who are not clever. I just cant quite handle striking immaturity at the age where a person should have done better than what they did.
I think good manners is always one of the sign of cleverness. Recently, one of my best friend was interrupted from having a lunch because somebody just decided to confront her at that very moment. I dont mind if someone died or it is about any misfortune where the matter is urgent. It took half of our lunch time and I was companionless for my lunch. I thought the matter must be serious. But later I found out, it is very mundane issue. it can wait until after lunch. in fact in can never been mentioned at all. I was annoyed. Why should i be affected on this mundane issue and lose my lunch company? I think it is rude and stupid. I just lose my respect to the people concerned. Not that my respect is important to them. which is what i explained above is basically all about. now that i've said it, that is all there is to it.

2) Nowadays guys (meaning a male who are not yet men) can demand. Meaning, they can play around with girls and waste the girls time on them and then they decided to wait for better offers. waiting for better offers is in itself very clever and right thing to do. however, what i want to know is how worthy are you for that better offer? Of course, better offers will come. but that better offers will just have to be satisfied with you. how sad.
What I am saying is, If you want to own a Mitsubishi Lancer, you must work very hard to buy it. then you are the rightful owner. because you wont be able to drive it if you dont pay for it. How can you own a Mitsubishi Lancer if you dont have the MEANS to own it? Of course, you can make loan etc. but if you made a debt you cant pay mitsubishi lancer will leave you.
Perhaps, Proton is the best for you. it still takes you wherever you want to go. but you just dont appreciate it. you decided to wait for mitsubishi lancer and abandon proton. or worse still, you modified proton to LOOK LIKE mitsubishi lancer. at that point it is just plain pathetic. and then you wait and wait for the real mitsubishi lancer but it will never come. you became delusioned and you end up with a proton that look like mitsubishi lancer because you thought that is the real mitsubishi lancer but only when you cant afford to buy another car anymore did you realized that what you own is actually neither proton or mitsubishi lancer.
moral of the story = live according to your means.

01 February 2009

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"

Taylor Swift - Love Story